Finding out that girlfriends come and go (and these days with being engaged most have gone). A close friend of mine and I butted heads and had some back biting (on both sides I am sure). I felt hurt and like she couldn't be really happy for me and the new development in my life. Eventually I put those feelings of being hurt and upset aside and apologized for being such a jerk hoping things would smooth over and that this once strong friendship could be fixed. Yet, after over a month of silence and still some reaching out (on my end) it seems what was once a strong friendship has diminished to possibly "someone I was once good friends with." Hurts that someone I considered to be family doesn't seem as interested in what has been happening to prepare for the biggest day of my life. I dont' really know what to do now, I guess that relationship wasn't as strong as I thought. Time will only tell if she and I will ever really speak again. I know I hope so.

If it weren't for my loving almost husband, I don't know if I could handle loosing the second strongest friendship I have had in my entire life (the first being the friendship I have with him).

If she ever hears this, I hope she knows that I still consider her a close friend and that I would love to try and make things less... strained between us. And that I love her.